Friday, March 21, 2014
My First Video
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Can't Think
Those days nothing feels like it's going your way I'm having one of those weeks! Forget days! nothing seems to really want to work right... I have a truck..... well had a truck now we're selling it do to there is tooooooo many problems with it.
The first problem is that the breaks started to go... well now they're gone! I have no breaks any more it needs a whole knew break system and has a few other problems... it's not work the 3,000 or 4,000 to get it to run 1 more year... So now it's being sold... I'm not happy about it either I loved that truck! It's my favorite ride!
Then we had to try and find me a new vehicle (used) but we're still looking... 2 weeks later... I wish it would stop... I wish we could find any vehicle for me to drive standard, automatic, two door, four door, car, truck..... ANYTHING I'm tired of having to get nervous behind the wheel... driving my step dad car. I get the warning of if anything happens to MY baby.... It's really bad... I don't even want to know but it's not much help... It's nerving enough.
After all this it's now the first day of spring and I can't drive to school... I have to take the bus.......
It came back to me very quickly why I don't take the bus any more.. I can't stand the people on it! They get so loud and the smell I can't take it... it's over welling like the sound, but it's only for a day... that's what I keep getting told it's just for a day!.... just one day.... one day to lose my mind completely... I can't even think any more!
I have a project do.... but I couldn't think to finish it like I promised... I have math to do... I forgot I had it in my bag.... I had to go grocery shopping yesterday! I'm just glad I didn't forget anything when I was doing that! When I get home I have to cook dinner... Now I gotta figure out what I'm gunna do for that!
But First I gotta take care of the problem at hand.... my work... my vehicle... my homework's...my life really... It's all slowly unraveling... Just like this post RANT RANT RANT!
That's all I can think to do right now... is ramble to post I can't think of anything else or what would be better then the thoughts that just suddenly pop into my head and never seem to leave as quickly as they enter.... I'll be lucky if any of this even makes sense.... \Oh well at least I can say I tried....
The first problem is that the breaks started to go... well now they're gone! I have no breaks any more it needs a whole knew break system and has a few other problems... it's not work the 3,000 or 4,000 to get it to run 1 more year... So now it's being sold... I'm not happy about it either I loved that truck! It's my favorite ride!
Then we had to try and find me a new vehicle (used) but we're still looking... 2 weeks later... I wish it would stop... I wish we could find any vehicle for me to drive standard, automatic, two door, four door, car, truck..... ANYTHING I'm tired of having to get nervous behind the wheel... driving my step dad car. I get the warning of if anything happens to MY baby.... It's really bad... I don't even want to know but it's not much help... It's nerving enough.
After all this it's now the first day of spring and I can't drive to school... I have to take the bus.......
It came back to me very quickly why I don't take the bus any more.. I can't stand the people on it! They get so loud and the smell I can't take it... it's over welling like the sound, but it's only for a day... that's what I keep getting told it's just for a day!.... just one day.... one day to lose my mind completely... I can't even think any more!
I have a project do.... but I couldn't think to finish it like I promised... I have math to do... I forgot I had it in my bag.... I had to go grocery shopping yesterday! I'm just glad I didn't forget anything when I was doing that! When I get home I have to cook dinner... Now I gotta figure out what I'm gunna do for that!
But First I gotta take care of the problem at hand.... my work... my vehicle... my homework's...my life really... It's all slowly unraveling... Just like this post RANT RANT RANT!
That's all I can think to do right now... is ramble to post I can't think of anything else or what would be better then the thoughts that just suddenly pop into my head and never seem to leave as quickly as they enter.... I'll be lucky if any of this even makes sense.... \Oh well at least I can say I tried....
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Skills!
I'm sooo happy for this chance and I'm even happier that it's almost done... sooo much stress and soo much work has been going on lately. I have been working on this pin design for a month... and I finally got it done the way I want it and learned a new skill! yay... so now I get to stay the night in a hotel :) I am really happy about this opportunity never felt more blest in my life for an opportunity like this. I had sat through the opening ceremony and it was crazy on it's own! But we got the chance to see one of our teachers get an award and it was awesome! I hope tomorrow goes by fast though... I feel like it's gunna drag on for hours because I don't like presenting... but it's not good! I might mess up and it'll effect my score!! that's the last thing I need... I hope everything goes well with my presentation but I also hope every one else does well in their competitions as well! It would be great to place 1st, 2nd, or 3rd. But there is a lot of talented kids here! I again am just glad to be here! =)
I didn't get first.... or second.... or third, but I got 4th! I'm happy for what I got and I'm glad that I have gotten the opportunity to be a part of skills. I might not have one but I did give it my best shot and if I could do it again I wouldn't change a single thing. I watched a few people I know and some I can call friends get 1st, 2nd, or 3rd. In there own competitions.
I hope I could do it again but there's nothing I can do... if I want to go back to do it again I can't do it in the high school division but at the easier level....College. There aren't many people that do it at the college level making it a little easier to place, but I don't want easier, I want that you have to work hard and put time in in order to place that you have to be dedicated in doing your best and no matter what happens keep your head high and know inside your a winner.
I didn't get first.... or second.... or third, but I got 4th! I'm happy for what I got and I'm glad that I have gotten the opportunity to be a part of skills. I might not have one but I did give it my best shot and if I could do it again I wouldn't change a single thing. I watched a few people I know and some I can call friends get 1st, 2nd, or 3rd. In there own competitions.
I hope I could do it again but there's nothing I can do... if I want to go back to do it again I can't do it in the high school division but at the easier level....College. There aren't many people that do it at the college level making it a little easier to place, but I don't want easier, I want that you have to work hard and put time in in order to place that you have to be dedicated in doing your best and no matter what happens keep your head high and know inside your a winner.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
3 years not knowing about a crush... Finally going on a First Date
Three years ago I started school here at Bucksport High, as a 10th grader and I was definitely nervous. I had came in and wasn't sure what to do... who to talk to... where to go. It was highly over whelming and I started to shut down, like I always do in situations that make me uncomfortable. There wasn't any one that I knew here, but I found my homeroom and met a few people... but I never talked I heard names from the teacher who was scanning the room to see if everyone was present. I just sat in the back and looked around at different faces, all new and people I thought I could get to know and be friends with.
After homeroom I had gym, that was about the only place I knew how to find. I was glad when I got there but it was still over whelming seeing so many people in the room. I stood by the door in the corner and noticed this guy who kept looking over at me and I just didn't know what to do. I thought he was kinda cute but I didn't want to say anything, because it was all too knew and I wasn't sure what to do so I just stood and watched people. After a little bit of side looks back and forth he walked over to me and my heart stopped. I wasn't sure if I should run or walk away or just hope for the best with talking to him. When he came over to me he stopped and just looked at me, so I looked at the floor and kept my arms crossed occasionally looking up at him.
He just stood there for what felt like forever then said, "Hi I'm Dylan... What are you doing way over here?"
So I said "Hi... I'm Makala.. and I'm just shy.. I just started school here and I don't know anyone", I could feel my voice shaking when I spoke looking at him. "So I was just watching..."
He looked at me like he was confused why I answered or something and then said "Well you wont get to know anyone standing around in the corner like this you should get out there and meet people."
Then he walked away.
I remember that first day because the only other time I saw him that year was in my art class, and that wasn't much because he was always getting in trouble. Then what I didn't know was he was a senior.. And was graduating that year, I never gave it another thought out side of, I wonder if he knew... or if I should have told him. (I had a crush on him).
It's 2 years later, now I'm the senior and haven't given that day much thought, till basketball season was almost over. There he was! I walked in the gym again and he was talking to the coach catching up and talking about where he's been. The feelings I had kept under wraps for almost 3 years started to come out again. I didn't think he noticed me, or recognized me because he started to go right by me and then out of no where I blurted out. "Hi Dylan" I just smiled after and he turned his head shocked to see me.
He stopped and talked to me for a while and told me that he had been down south but took the trip back up with a buddy. He seemed happy to see me and was glad to bump into me, but we wanted to stay in touch so we could meet up again. So he took my phone and changed the number I had in it to his correct number and then called his phone from mine, so we could text.
It's been 3 or 4 months since then... and I'm glad because a month ago he asked me out and we went out on are first date.
It started out with me picking him up and going back to my house, we hung out all morning there and he got to see the Croods, a movie he had not yet seen. I was just happy to see him let alone know that the count down had started... just a few more hours and we would be really starting are date! It was to be us going to a movie, then maybe a little dinner or something to eat, then sadly back to job corp. The movie we went to see was Ride a Long, it was very funny and was the perfect movie for us to watch for a first date. It was a comedy, it was romantic a little tiny bit, and finally it was an action movie so we both were happy. Then after we stopped over to my sister's, to say hello and chat a little bit about the movie. After we saw my sister we went over to Hero's, only for dessert though! He had never tried a deep fried whoopee pie, and to me that was a crying shame, they're delicious! As we were sitting and had ordered are dessert the waitress or hostess that sat us down come back over after 10 minutes and says "I'm sorry but I just have to say you two are the cutest couple I've seen." We said thank you and just looked at each other laughing. It was great! After the deep fried whoopee pie, you have to try one if you haven't, I had to take him back... It was sad that it had to end because neither one of us wanted it to but we were thankful for the time we got together on that first date.
The next date will be great too, even though we don't know what it will be yet, but I'm sure it will be great. It always is when we get to be with the people we hold close to us in our hearts.
After homeroom I had gym, that was about the only place I knew how to find. I was glad when I got there but it was still over whelming seeing so many people in the room. I stood by the door in the corner and noticed this guy who kept looking over at me and I just didn't know what to do. I thought he was kinda cute but I didn't want to say anything, because it was all too knew and I wasn't sure what to do so I just stood and watched people. After a little bit of side looks back and forth he walked over to me and my heart stopped. I wasn't sure if I should run or walk away or just hope for the best with talking to him. When he came over to me he stopped and just looked at me, so I looked at the floor and kept my arms crossed occasionally looking up at him.
He just stood there for what felt like forever then said, "Hi I'm Dylan... What are you doing way over here?"
So I said "Hi... I'm Makala.. and I'm just shy.. I just started school here and I don't know anyone", I could feel my voice shaking when I spoke looking at him. "So I was just watching..."
He looked at me like he was confused why I answered or something and then said "Well you wont get to know anyone standing around in the corner like this you should get out there and meet people."
Then he walked away.
I remember that first day because the only other time I saw him that year was in my art class, and that wasn't much because he was always getting in trouble. Then what I didn't know was he was a senior.. And was graduating that year, I never gave it another thought out side of, I wonder if he knew... or if I should have told him. (I had a crush on him).
It's 2 years later, now I'm the senior and haven't given that day much thought, till basketball season was almost over. There he was! I walked in the gym again and he was talking to the coach catching up and talking about where he's been. The feelings I had kept under wraps for almost 3 years started to come out again. I didn't think he noticed me, or recognized me because he started to go right by me and then out of no where I blurted out. "Hi Dylan" I just smiled after and he turned his head shocked to see me.
He stopped and talked to me for a while and told me that he had been down south but took the trip back up with a buddy. He seemed happy to see me and was glad to bump into me, but we wanted to stay in touch so we could meet up again. So he took my phone and changed the number I had in it to his correct number and then called his phone from mine, so we could text.
It's been 3 or 4 months since then... and I'm glad because a month ago he asked me out and we went out on are first date.
It started out with me picking him up and going back to my house, we hung out all morning there and he got to see the Croods, a movie he had not yet seen. I was just happy to see him let alone know that the count down had started... just a few more hours and we would be really starting are date! It was to be us going to a movie, then maybe a little dinner or something to eat, then sadly back to job corp. The movie we went to see was Ride a Long, it was very funny and was the perfect movie for us to watch for a first date. It was a comedy, it was romantic a little tiny bit, and finally it was an action movie so we both were happy. Then after we stopped over to my sister's, to say hello and chat a little bit about the movie. After we saw my sister we went over to Hero's, only for dessert though! He had never tried a deep fried whoopee pie, and to me that was a crying shame, they're delicious! As we were sitting and had ordered are dessert the waitress or hostess that sat us down come back over after 10 minutes and says "I'm sorry but I just have to say you two are the cutest couple I've seen." We said thank you and just looked at each other laughing. It was great! After the deep fried whoopee pie, you have to try one if you haven't, I had to take him back... It was sad that it had to end because neither one of us wanted it to but we were thankful for the time we got together on that first date.
The next date will be great too, even though we don't know what it will be yet, but I'm sure it will be great. It always is when we get to be with the people we hold close to us in our hearts.
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